‘Self-Inflicted’

I dream of more than not being alive.

I dream I never existed,
so I could never have died.

I visit dead me,
buried inside,
wishing me instead of him—
an inseparable tie.

I dream I go back
to tell him the truth:

"The decisions that I've made
split us in two.

I sacrificed your life
for what I pursued.

Now they'll remember me
instead of remembering you."